Today I finally managed to recommit myself to prayer. For me this means becoming regular with my daily obligatory prayer, making time for prayers with baby, and including at least some focused personal prayer and reading of sacred writings daily. Why today? Well … I need it. I have been feeling stress, guilt and discontent …
Safely home. Aaaah … no place like home. Going on vacation is wonderful. I’ve noticed as I get older that the returning home part is often even more wonderful. Our own bed. Delightful! All our THINGS that we like and use. Knowing where things are and where they belong. Freedom to do as many loads …
Guilt, guilt guilt. Why do I feel so much guilt? I am becoming aware of how constantly I am assessing my actions and wondering what I should be doing differently. Guilt is the opposite of being in the moment. It’s the opposite of self-acceptance. It’s the opposite of peace. And I am riddled with it. …
Some things I’m learning to accept these days. We inevitably leave late for a trip. We always pack way, way too much for a trip. Whatever we pack, however well organized, will end up in multiple bags, containers, and running loose all over the car before the first day is up. For every extra item …
Today I nearly had a melt-down. And made it back to normal or better. Why the emotional collapse? The usual: dwelling on the negative, and baby not doing what I wanted. Ridiculous reasons, really. I know better than to focus on the dark side, but in relation to baby cooperation and breastfeeding, it’s where I …
150 blog posts. 3 years of marriage. 1 long day. I’ve been blogging daily for about 5 months now. I’m amazed at how easily this became a daily habit. I just do it. It’s rarely a burden or a nuisance. I usually look forward to it. the only time it’s hard is when bedtime is …
Yesterday the family (yes, all 3 of us! Yay!) went to an artsy crafty festival in a beautiful new building (is it an art studio? a mansion? a coffee shop? All of the above) in a lovely ruralish part of town. A friend was selling her work there which is how I ended up going, …
Let’s face it: I can be a complainer. I planned to get out of the house by 9 this morning to do our one errand: groceries from Nature’s Fare. Instead, pancakes took a while, then baby had to play, then poop, then resist being dressed, then play/walk. Plus other stuff. So we left the house …
Today is definitely not yesterday. Putting positivity and pro-activity into action. Baby was good enough to feel well much of today and play beautifully on her own for quite a few stretches. It was so sweet to see (and hear, when she was moving her blocks around the bedroom) her busy with her work, talking …
First day of vacation. I ended the day stressed, lonely, sad and burned out. Time to reassess. Though vacation is supposed to be joyful and fun, if you’ve been working hard it’s also the first chance to come down off of the adrenalin cycle and get back in touch with your real life. My real …