This moment is only here now. And each moment and each day, I don’t live up to my hopes for being a mother. But I also love and treasure the moments (most moments – some are not quite so much fun!). Like earlier today, out doing errands, carrying and loving my daughter but still carting …
I’m going through another bout of frustration and worry about breastfeeding. This one must have been brought on by our switch out of donated breastmilk to formula – we’re making one from goat’s milk. And there’s a lot going on around that: regular store trips to get the milk, wondering if we’re making it right, …
Tonight was fairly typical of how work nights go. Fine but long. It’s 11:30. How did this happen? Pick up baby from work. Try to nurse. Pack up and leave. Most pleasantly, she fell asleep on the way home after a few complaints. Sweet sweet baby. I try to enjoy the drive time each day, …
Once you’re a mom, people will give you a lot of advice about making sure you still make time for yourself. Take care of yourself. Don’t lose yourself. Pamper yourself. Take care of your needs. True. But still, though I know that on a basic level this is true (if I’m exhausted, grumpy, sick and …
Time with baby can sometimes spread well into the evening, and beyond. That’s what it’s felt like lately: long. Last night baby must have woken up 5+ times. Poor husband had to get up at least 4 times to warm a bottle (if I try and do it, the crying escalates in the interval so …
Today was a day. Not stellar. Husband wasn’t feeling well (headache). The day felt long and blah. However, I did get to go on a 3-hour outing with baby. Actually not so bad! It was car-free day downtown so we walked and saw some people and left husband home to clean the house etc. Some …
I think this is my 68th post. Over 2 months of blogging once/day. Yay! I’m feeling a little burnt out! Sometimes I have things to say. Sometimes I don’t. And rarely do I have a big chunk of time to reflectively write. Sometimes, that’s my fault. Like tonight. Baby in bed by 8. Not much …
Today’s lunch: better than anticipated. I was there first, sitting with baby, and a friendly face came around the corner. We recognized each other; he brought a gift for baby which she enjoyed. It’s interesting for me to consider what I expected. I was expecting a high-powered, full-of-himself networking-obsessed status-seeking go-getter. The type of person …
I wish my recent posts were a bit more uplifting. However, I’m feeling more pulled in too many directions. With high points, but tired at the end. Saw the dermatologist this morning. Helpful to see an expert; helpful information. Basically we’re going to continue the food elimination but try and do it as quickly as …
Today is International Day of Peace. I must admit that I did not feel very peaceful much of the day. Rushing out of the house in the morning. At my mom’s my car broke down: a hose that my husband and BIL had temporarily fixed burst, leaking fluid all over. I was angry, mainly at …