Choices

8:12 p.m. Baby is not asleep, though she is tired and fell asleep on the drive home. It’s been two somewhat long and whiny, cryie days around here. I am tired. and a bit frustrated. I had dreams of rolling her into bed and getting a lot of stuff done. That is not going to …

Happy

Not sure why, but I’m quite happy today. It’s great! Maybe it’s because it’s Thursday (TGIT!). Maybe because I’ve gone to bed early 3 nights in a row (bliss!!!) and not rushed in the mornings (also bliss!). Maybe I’m feeling kind of partially caught up at work. Maybe it’s also that I got to leave …

Magical Evening

Driving up to my mom’s after work, I noticed the snow specks glistening in the near-dark. Baby was happy to see me, reenacting the same welcome she’s done all week: “MAMA! MAMA! as she smiles and races by the gate at the top of the stairs. We nursed and played the chase-me game as I …

Past Lives

Today at work I had only one (fun) meeting, so I had lots of time to catch up on the projects that I haven’t been able to get to. I took the morning to put together a resource list for a workshop I helped present on employment equity and search committees. This entailed tracking down …

Monday recap

Today: pretty good. Baby woke up just before the alarm went off. Lots of nursing and potty. With husband’s help, we were fed and out of the house before 8. Baby drop-off: seamless. Arriving at work: parked in a nearer lot, and time to login to computer and get to presentation early. Presentation: went well. …

More Melting

Walking into a dark bedroom where a little mop-topped toddler is sitting up, rubbing her eyes, and asking quietly and clearly for “mama.” Said baby rolling over after nursing to rest her head on my heart, arms wrapped around my sides while I stroke her hair. Whoever said that being a parent doesn’t bring happiness …

Natural habitat

Last night after staying late at work I realized that I have been feeling stressed, unwell, not great. I’m forgetting things (many, many things), having a hard time concentrating, and a lot more irritable than usual. Once I realized this, I accepted it (yay, first step!) and then was informed by my husband once I …

Not Fun At All

Lest you all think I walk around in a dream-like state completely divorced from reality, here are some interactions that occur with my daughter that I really am not super fond of. I would say that they are not fun at all. At ALL. Trying for a positive spin, I would say they add depth …

Bad Parenting

Yesterday night I made a parenting decision that made me wonder about my to make decisions. In bed, trying to get baby to sleep. Nursing, bottle, napping, and before you know it she’s sitting up, signing “eat!” and making her adorable “I’m hungry!” noise: “umm, mm, mmm.” I thought it made sense to keep her …