And fantasies, too. Baby is nursing to sleep in the middle of the day. I’m sitting in bed, holding her. My brain goes: “Good, she’s going to sleep. Probably be out for almost 2 hours. I might blog, get that done. Or maybe I’ll get around to working on the course – lots of prep …
Things, commitments, worries, lists, links, emails, projects. They can inspire, stress, depress, transform, consume. Right now, I’m feeling pretty good about my life. I’m also feeling lots of little threads tying me down and making it hard to fly. Perhaps it’s appropriate I’m thinking about this on day 4 of the fast – a chance …
Not sure why, but I’m quite happy today. It’s great! Maybe it’s because it’s Thursday (TGIT!). Maybe because I’ve gone to bed early 3 nights in a row (bliss!!!) and not rushed in the mornings (also bliss!). Maybe I’m feeling kind of partially caught up at work. Maybe it’s also that I got to leave …
It’s my Friday – the start of my weekend. My husband usually picks up baby on Thursday nights to give me some personal time. It’s funny how little I look forward to what should be delightful! I’m dealing with part of my anxiety right now by pumping before I leave the office. Going too long …
Today was kind of about anti-acceptance. I hit the ground running, tackling emails as they came in and prepping for a big day at work. My afternoon meeting was cancelled so I was ready for a full-on productive day. And suddenly, mid-morning, I had an irresistable urge to compare myself to others. I just had …
Sometimes, being tired is a good thing. When you’re tired your resistance drops, and it can free you from pushing through with all the shoulds on your list. Like tonight. I really should get some writing done. Or more research in preparation for a finance meeting on Wed. night. Or … something! Declutter another shelf! …
Almost 2 months ago I started drumming again. My old teacher was holding weekly jam sessions for advanced students on afro-cuban drumming. I love that stuff, so I went, and was completely invigorated. As time has gone by, I’ve continued to enjoy the evenings often, but also dread them a bit. Finding time to practice …
Changing a few small things can make a big difference. I stopped by an eye store on our walk today and had my glasses tightened. With baby’s snatch-ability (and possibly generally loose frames??), my glasses were falling off my face and the arms were floppy. Now they stay in place. Brilliant! I also bought a …
Today: pretty good. Baby woke up just before the alarm went off. Lots of nursing and potty. With husband’s help, we were fed and out of the house before 8. Baby drop-off: seamless. Arriving at work: parked in a nearer lot, and time to login to computer and get to presentation early. Presentation: went well. …
I wish it were Tuesday. Sigh. I have a presentation to give tomorrow morning and I’ve been stressing about it for a while. It’s an important one, there’s a lot of content, and BLEH, I’ve been struggling to focus and prepare appropriately. Plus, it’s first thing tomorrow, so we need to get out of the …