Guilt, guilt guilt. Why do I feel so much guilt? I am becoming aware of how constantly I am assessing my actions and wondering what I should be doing differently. Guilt is the opposite of being in the moment. It’s the opposite of self-acceptance. It’s the opposite of peace. And I am riddled with it. …
Good days start with a good night’s sleep. Baby went to sleep a bit after 8 and only woke up 2ce (!) before final wake-up around 6:30. Amazing!! I can’t believe how good it’s goign to feel when she does this more often. We also enjoyed watching “Win Win” last night. This morning started with …
Vacation here is about family.Our girls together are amazingly cute. Watching them play together I can really observe the uniqueness each brings to the world. They have got into some disagreements over who gets to play with what toy :). There is some pulling and not-happy noises. This is the learning and family bonding time …
Last night turned out not quite as planned. Owing to various sleep/nap/bedtime discrepancies, we couldn’t get out of here until around 7:30 and going to the concert didn’t seem practical. So my sister washed up and we went to a drum circle instead. Great to be drumming more lately! I used a djembe and a …
Tonight, on vacation, my sister & I are heading to a house concert in a neighbouring town. My first big outing like this ever post-baby. I’m excited to go, nervous, trusting my husband to be with her, and missing baby already. Must go get ready. Here goes.
Some things I’m learning to accept these days. We inevitably leave late for a trip. We always pack way, way too much for a trip. Whatever we pack, however well organized, will end up in multiple bags, containers, and running loose all over the car before the first day is up. For every extra item …
ETD for our trip: 10 a.m.Actual time leaving town: 12:45. Not bad, but we missed the ideal of hitting the road before baby’s naptime. Result: awakeness and baby play instead of reading, talking and snacking. Eventually she slept. But it was dark. How to read? Answer: the gorgeous sweet silver flashlight in the fabulous toolkit …
Today I nearly had a melt-down. And made it back to normal or better. Why the emotional collapse? The usual: dwelling on the negative, and baby not doing what I wanted. Ridiculous reasons, really. I know better than to focus on the dark side, but in relation to baby cooperation and breastfeeding, it’s where I …
150 blog posts. 3 years of marriage. 1 long day. I’ve been blogging daily for about 5 months now. I’m amazed at how easily this became a daily habit. I just do it. It’s rarely a burden or a nuisance. I usually look forward to it. the only time it’s hard is when bedtime is …
Yesterday the family (yes, all 3 of us! Yay!) went to an artsy crafty festival in a beautiful new building (is it an art studio? a mansion? a coffee shop? All of the above) in a lovely ruralish part of town. A friend was selling her work there which is how I ended up going, …