{"id":684,"date":"2018-12-30T06:04:49","date_gmt":"2018-12-30T06:04:49","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/kamillamilligan.com\/2018-12-29-starting-again\/"},"modified":"2018-12-30T06:04:49","modified_gmt":"2018-12-30T06:04:49","slug":"2018-12-29-starting-again","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kamillamilligan.com\/index.php\/2018\/12\/30\/2018-12-29-starting-again\/","title":{"rendered":"Starting Again"},"content":{"rendered":"<div style=\"width: 2510px\" class=\"wp-caption alignnone\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/static1.squarespace.com\/static\/55ab3776e4b0a0d1a30020ee\/55ab37aae4b031edd6f97b53\/5c285a3eaa4a995f08a5a03a\/1546149682773\/IMG_6409.jpg\" alt=\" Family love \"\/><p class=\"wp-caption-text\">Family love<\/p><\/div>\n<p style=\"white-space: pre-wrap;\">Three years. It\u2019s been three years since I last posted on this blog. What have I been doing since then? Let\u2019s see. Moving to an island. Starting up a full-time job, and giving up stay-at-home mom life. Purchasing a home with my spouse and supporting him to do a full year of renos. Moving to that house and working from a distance and also commuting intermittently. And now, finally, taking almost 3 weeks off from work, while my daughter is off school and my spouse isn\u2019t too busy with work, to have what feels like the first real break since we moved.<\/p>\n<p style=\"white-space: pre-wrap;\">The December lull is always feels like the time for reflection and recommitment. With the short days, swirling weather, time to connect with friends and relatives and closed doors on many businesses and institutions, it has all the elements to help me  retreat, reenergize and prepare to reemerge.<\/p>\n<p style=\"white-space: pre-wrap;\">The things I want are the same as I\u2019ve craved for years. A loving family life. Being of service in my community. Meaningful friendships. A positive parenting relationship. Creative engagement. And writing\u2014always writing. Even if I try to give up the dream of it, the compulsion to put words together seems to live in my core. I\u2019d even say it\u2019s part of my identity. And I\u2019d go as far as to say it feels like part of my purpose in life.  <\/p>\n<p style=\"white-space: pre-wrap;\">Writing, therefore, is what I need to start again. I know I need to do it regularly. I know that I need to organize my time, my ideas and my physical space to make it happen. I know that I need encouragement and accompaniment, because I\u2019m full of doubts and other work always seems to take priority. <\/p>\n<p style=\"white-space: pre-wrap;\">Beginning writing again isn\u2019t a new year\u2019s resolution: it\u2019s something I\u2019ve been working towards over the past weeks and months, that I have been doing, however sporadically, in the intermittent spaces of time I\u2019ve found, and that I must embrace, I must pursue, if I want to bring the meaning I crave into the next decades of my life. It\u2019s what I need to do now so that I can look back in a year, 5, 30, and know that I actually had the self-knowledge and courage to do what I know I need to do and be grateful for the life I made.<\/p>\n<p style=\"white-space: pre-wrap;\">More to come. Thanks for being here. <\/p>\n<div style=\"width: 2510px\" class=\"wp-caption alignnone\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/static1.squarespace.com\/static\/55ab3776e4b0a0d1a30020ee\/55ab37aae4b031edd6f97b53\/5c2860268a922d1c5e97676c\/1546149940803\/From%2Ba%2Blookout%252C%2Bfamily%2Bhike.jpg\" alt=\" From a lookout, on a fall family hike. \"\/><p class=\"wp-caption-text\">From a lookout, on a fall family hike.<\/p><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p style=\"white-space: pre-wrap;\">Three years. It\u2019s been three years since I last posted on this blog. What have I been doing since then? Let\u2019s see. Moving to an island. 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