{"id":356,"date":"2012-06-27T21:39:30","date_gmt":"2012-06-27T21:39:30","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/kamillamilligan.com\/2012-06-27-slowly-emerging-self-awareness\/"},"modified":"2012-06-27T21:39:30","modified_gmt":"2012-06-27T21:39:30","slug":"2012-06-27-slowly-emerging-self-awareness","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kamillamilligan.com\/index.php\/2012\/06\/27\/2012-06-27-slowly-emerging-self-awareness\/","title":{"rendered":"Slowly Emerging Self-Awareness"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;ve been wondering lately why I&#8217;m holding my breath, wanting to swear all the time, rushing everywhere, having a hard time concentrating at work and not enjoying life so much. I just figured it out over the past few days: I&#8217;m stressed!<br \/>\nAmazing deduction; it only took weeks and weeks to get there.<\/p>\n<p>We&#8217;re living in the basement. It&#8217;s too small with not enough storage, is dark and constantly messy. We don&#8217;t have enough money right now. Renos continue. We have no idea what we&#8217;re going to do with this house and are constantly contemplating a wide range of dramatic options.<\/p>\n<p>Stuff is happening at work, too; new opportunities, more work, growth and such. Great. Demanding. Stressful.<\/p>\n<p>Oh, I turned 40, did you hear? Though it&#8217;s not such a big deal, it also is, and it kind of passed and is gone and I still haven&#8217;t reflected on it. Still have not found a measly hour to do my annual reflection and projecting for the next year.<\/p>\n<p>Realizing I&#8217;m stressed is remarkably relaxing. Now that I know what the problem is, I can cut myself some slack. Of course I&#8217;m having a hard time, I&#8217;m stressed! I also potentially might take some things off my to do list. Maybe. We&#8217;ll see.<\/p>\n<p>In any case, I chose to call my sister tonight after baby went to sleep instead of jumping right into work. And I think I&#8217;m going to call it quits now, too, for the computer &#8211; I&#8217;d rather fold laundry and watch TV and the other work can wait. It has to. I need my sleep.<\/p>\n<p>BTW, part of letting some things go is making room for others. My links are updated &#8211; I removed some which, though great, I found I wasn&#8217;t reading, and added some new ones I&#8217;d like to explore. I&#8217;d be interested in a few blogs\/links on doing Montessori at home with young kids, and\/or doing art and other creative projects. I&#8217;d like to make more space for that, in a calm, non-stressed, peaceful way. You know.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;ve been wondering lately why I&#8217;m holding my breath, wanting to swear all the time, rushing everywhere, having a hard time concentrating at work and not enjoying life so much. I just figured it out over the past few days: I&#8217;m stressed! Amazing deduction; it only took weeks and weeks to get there. We&#8217;re living [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"saved_in_kubio":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[218],"class_list":["post-356","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-stress"],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kamillamilligan.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/356","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kamillamilligan.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kamillamilligan.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kamillamilligan.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kamillamilligan.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=356"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/kamillamilligan.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/356\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kamillamilligan.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=356"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kamillamilligan.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=356"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kamillamilligan.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=356"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}